allenwalkerfetishist:

I fucking hate everything and everyone no one gives a shit no one gives a serious shit. ‘send a nice message because they are sad once and never bother to talk to them again any other time’

God fucking damn why would you do that

I wish I was a fucking priority to someone for once in my life, I wish people wanted to hang out with me consistently.

Who the fuck are you and why th e fuck are you reblogging my personal vent posts on my private blog


I fucking hate everything and everyone no one gives a shit no one gives a serious shit. ‘send a nice message because they are sad once and never bother to talk to them again any other time’

God fucking damn why would you do that

I wish I was a fucking priority to someone for once in my life, I wish people wanted to hang out with me consistently.


I am such a low priority to literally everyone but maybe 1 person.

I want to fucking kill myself


I hope this thing spreads into my blood stream and kills me slowly


"I love your -specific part of myself pointed out- ! You are cute!"

That’s not me.. don’t Identify me with that..
my birth name is not my identity, or anything, don’t remind me of who I am


WHY DO I HAVE TO LOOK THE WAY I DO, WHY CANT I LOOK AVERAGE.

WHY DO HAVE TO BE FAT I CANT FUCKING SEEM TO EVER FIX IT AND I LOOK FUCKING RIDICULOUS. WHY DO HAVE TO HAVE A ROUND FACE SHAPE, BIG CHEEKS, SMALL MOUTH, SHIT TEETH AND SMILE, TERRIBLE HAIR THAT NEVER WORKS

WHY DO I HAVE TO LOOK THE WAY I DO, WHY AM I STUCK LIKE THIS. I FUCKING HATE MYSELF. I FEEL ALIEN IN MY OWN FUCKING BODY. I DON’T LOOK LIKE ME..
BUT IT’S WHAT I AM TO EVERY ONE ELSE AND THAT FUCKING DEPRESSES ME..


if I get out of this house I will be better


ABSOLUTELY NOTHING MATTERS!

every attempt is useless!!!!!!

i should just go to prison and never enter society again


I ask myself, why do i bother? whats the point in the long run?

probably because this is probably going to be turned against me to make me the bad guy

no use i guess


crippling self hate.

I’m getting anxious over possibly getting a hair cut tomorrow

why, because i just odn’t want to hate myself more in regret.

why do i have to look fucking stupid all the fucking time